My first semester as a sophomore had been a roller coaster ride. So many ups and downs that made me become a different person. During this time,I thought of shifting AGAIN to another course, doing a total make-over with the way I look, failing my two major subjects just for a change and cutting my classes because of no reason at all. I'm a good girl that turned into a monster in a way. I'm disappointed with myself because I did not make it to the dean's list so I became lazy to study. Two words are only on my head that time. GIVE UP. I did not expect that my course (Financial Management) is way harder than Accountancy. I had so many stressful days and sleepless nights. (I'm not being exaggerated, btw). Many questions led me to confusion. Will I survive? Am I in the right track? What awaits for me in the future? All of these stuffs are running in my head for five months. I don't know what to expect so I took things for granted. What the hell happened to me?
Even if the perspective in life totally changed, I can still say that I am lucky enough because I have my mom who continuously supported me and my boyfriend who cheered me up along the way. I prayed so hard that may God guide me all throughout because He is my light and my only hope in midst of the darkness. I was filled with agony, anxiety and sadness. A bubbly girl before turned into a negative person who's hopeless in her life. That's how I describe myself. The people I've mentioned helped me somehow to recover from everything. I owe them where I am today. THANK YOU MOM AND RAF :)
I changed not for the best. I did that because I am lost in life. After all the things that happened, I realized that I was a sap head after all. What a shame :l I learned a lot from that. Now, I promise that I'll make it better next semester. It is not yet to late to prove myself to other people, ayt? :)) ♥
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